On July 12, 2019, Friday, I was on the train somewhere in Bavaria. The car moved and I moved with it. I was tired, achy, giddy, and anxious. By that time last year, I had been sleeping between 3 and 4 hours each night, considering myself lucky if I got to 5 hours. July of 2019 was particularly hard as I was torn between jetlag and my chronic insomnia.